This post is about what happened to me today. My history teacher made me so mad at him that I HAVE to write a post about what happened.
My history teacher basically humiliated me in front of all of my peers. I was reading my book in class, and he got really mad at this. You know what we were doing? We were just looking over our tests that we took last week, and I was already done doing that. He practically yelled at me in front of the whole class, saying that if I continue what I'm doing, then I won't get a 5 on the AP exam and I wouldn't get an A on the next test. In fact, he didn't have to yell. The whole class was listening in to him telling me what a worthless piece of shit that I was. After he finished his lecture, nobody would work with me when we got into group discussions. I was nearly in tears because no one would look at me, let alone talk. I have, seriously, never been so humiliated in front of any class for any reason. In this regard, no teacher has ever said something so degrading to me before. Not even my parents have ever said that I would not succeed on the AP test. Although this teacher didn't say that I would not get a 5 on the AP test, it was totally implied. Anyone that was present could hear what he meant behind his sentence. This further proves to me how low this school has sunk in choosing the right teacher for the job.
I was so embarrassed and ashamed when he started yelling. I mean, I haven't done anything seriously wrong that deserves punishment. Only now do I know that teachers are not necessarily “good” until they are proven so. For example, I thought that this history teacher was amazing until he told me off today. I was in total shock because I believe that I have been doing pretty well in his class so far. Although I might not be one of the top students in the class, I am still a good student. Its not right for other people to do what they want while others can't. Also, this history teachers plays obvious favorites when he says, “Even if I'm a chimpanzee, you will ace this course.” I mean, what's the point of saying that? Seriously. And the “fights” that occur between him and the teacher across the hall. Absolutely childish and immature. This takes time away from class and shows how immature this teacher really is on the inside. Its one of the things that are just plain ridiculous. Teachers should not act in such a manner that would cause their students to look down on them. Sure, these supposed “arguments” generate a couple of laughs from the crowd, but what are the students really thinking? I'll bet anything that none of the students are there because they think that this particular teacher is amazing or anything. They are there because they want to earn the college credit and save themselves some time when they enter college. I am there for that reason, so that at least makes one of us.
Also, this teacher always says of how hard this course is going to get and how we would hit some walls when we are trying to learn. He literally says that in just about every class. I mean, stop wasting your time telling us how hard life is going to get later in the year and get back to teaching. He just tries to scare us into thinking how hard AP US History is going to get. But from what I have experienced thus far, this class isn't so hard to pass. To be honest, I was pretty nervous when I started this class, but I have not gotten a grade lower than a B. And if I can do it, I know everybody else can because I have started from the bottom of the bucket and worked myself up. No matter what this particular teacher does or says to me would ever put me down because I know better. I know more than to just believe in what one person says to or thinks about me. I'm better than they are and I'm above such pettiness.
To be telling me off in front of the whole class is just ridiculous in my opinion. Truth be told, I could sue him for harassment and discrimination but I don't want to waste my time doing that and I might need his letter of recommendation. That's why I haven't taken action against him. But seriously, my history teacher is tactless. Why couldn't have he just pulled me over and talk to me privately? That would have made everything so much better. Instead, he comes over and humiliates me in front of everybody. Completely unacceptable. This proves my point on how degrading and uneducated this type of people are. I mean, look: educated and refined people always respects the rights and well-being of the people around them. These kind of people take care of others. But no, my history teacher purposefully made me blush with shame for the remainder of the period. I sat there in a shock, not daring to believe what just happened. Did a TEACHER humiliate me? Did a TEACHER force me to sit a period of shame for about an hour? Never, in my worst nightmare, did I imagine a scenario like this. I was totally unprepared.
You know what made this situation worse? I was left alone. My classmates, my FRIENDS, left me. I was left alone to work by myself. This forced me to tears. Literally, tears were in my eyes until I blinked them back. In my hour of need, my friends scattered and sat in their own little group. I chose not to cry because I have not cried in school for years and I want to keep it that way. But seriously, how cool is that? This is officially the worst day of the week. And its only Monday.
OK, so this does it for my rant of the day. I don't do this often because usually nothing as dramatic as this happens.